Some days are heavier than others. Today was a day I was grateful to have a big project to distract me. Those moments of busy keep my brain active and preoccupied. In the quiet moments that follow the flurry of a busy day come the realities. The reality that this is all not some crazy dream that I will wake up from. That the life which I knew for so long is completely different now. So much unsettled. So much new.
The other day I found a cd that I had been wondering about lately. The first time I ever heard the song Gravity by Sarah Bareilles I remembered thinking it was one of the most amazing songs ever. Today while driving home the next track of her cd started up and there it was. My sunroof was a flood of light...hot upon my arms. The windows were down. And I sang so loudly that my stomach was slightly sore by the end of the song. I didn't care who might have heard as a drove down this lightly traveled road from Effort.
"Something always brings me back to you...it never takes too long". The song talks about gravity. It can be anything that holds you down...keeps you back. Doesn't allow you to move forward or in any direction at all. When I first heard the song it was while watching a dance show and the choreographer interpreted it as addiction and how it holds you. We all have something that holds us. Keeps us. Chains us. I am realizing I had more than I thought and I need to set them free. "Set me free, leave me be...I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity"...more of the lyrics that ask to not be held back. I sang loudly to remind myself. I sang loudly because the mixture of wind and sunlight and exhaustion from a good day of hard work made me feel free...even if only for the short time it took to get home.
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