Let the Rain (Sara Bareilles)

     It's been raining.  For days.  For what seems like forever.  I don't mind the rain and my curls quite prefer it.  But it's been too long...and I don't just mean the weather.  May has been a challenging month.  It used to be a favorite that I looked forward to...but turned into a million little painful reminders.
     Yesterday on the way home from work I found myself in the middle of one of the hardest rains I have ever seen.  My wipers could not keep up.  My windows had fogged from the sudden change of temperatures.  I pulled over when I found a safe parking lot to hide in for a second and just sat there.  I was marveling at the sight of the tiny rivers flowing by me into the storm drain.  I watched the huge flowing ripples as trucks drove by.  I listened as the drops hit my "sunroof"...haven't seen that sun so I am calling it my "rainview" now.  As I was doing all of this I realized this song (Let the Rain)  was playing.  I have been listening to Sara Bareilles more than ever lately and each time I do a new lyric hits me.  This song blasting and a girl scared of the roads ahead sat in a parking lot listening and watching the rain. 
     It was a profound moment.  Each word washed over me as the waters washed over my pollen ridden car.  I keep asking for a path from the universe.  I keep asking for my future.  And yet I think it's been trying pretty hard to get my attention all of this time.  It has been.  It's been doing it in overtime.  Shame on me for not properly noticing.  When you miss the whispers...the universe will shout.  It shouted today with a storm that scared me right off of the road and forced me to listen.  It even gave me a soundtrack...
"Let The Rain"

I wish I were pretty
I wish I were brave
If I owned this city
Then I'd make it behave

And if I were fearless
Then I'd speak my truth
And the world would hear this
That's what I wish I'd do, yeah

If my hands could hold them you'd see
I'd take all these secrets in me
And I'd move and mold them to be
Something I'd set free

I want to darken in the skies
Open the floodgates up
I want to change my mind
I want to be enough
I want the water in my eyes
I want to cry until the end of time

I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down tonight

I hold on to worry so tight
It's safe in here right next to my heart
Who now shouts at the top of her voice
Let me go, let me out, this is not my choice

And I always felt it before
That the world was filled with much more
Than the drowning soul I've learned to be
I just need the rain to remind me

I want to darken in the skies
Open the floodgates up
I want to change my mind
I want to be enough
I want the water in my eyes
I want to cry until the end of time

I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down

I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down

I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down tonight