I am miserable. Cranky and tired. I can't even imagine the circles under my eyes but unfortunately I'll have to look in the mirror soon enough. Why the upbeat song if I'm feeling like this? Well, I was inspired for many reasons. First off, this is my new GO TO song when I'm a grouch. If I find myself teetering on tears as I get dressed in the morning my Ipod goes to this. It makes me smile, it picks up my dragging pace...it makes me happier. So I'm not even making myself wait until then. I'm trying for the head start. My status update on Facebook was about to be a real downer which isn't fair on this sunny morning starting off the new week. I will come and crumble here instead.
Last night I took my first walk of the spring season. It looked sunny and in my head it is almost April so it must be warm. But it was freezing. I squeezed a mile in anyhow but this song helped. I needed the walk. I use them to stay sane. Each step I take I try to release one of the 9,000 things bugging me at the current status of my life. So the song was already with me.
Hours later was a rough one with my 5 yr old. I had some soothing to do and then a carry right up to my bed. Where he proceeded to kick me with the strength of a black belt for hours. I realized the song was playing in my head but for different reasons. I made a little short film with time elapsed footage of him kicking me all while this song played. It made me smile at myself.
Mondays are rough lately. I used to face them with the an unstoppable attitude but that has been waning. Thank goodness for the 9am job that I run off to...it helps me so. This weekend was particularly rough in so many ways that I don't know where to start to process it all. In the meantime I will drink extra coffee, remember that it will all get better someday (or so they tell me) and play this song as inspiration.
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