Running to Stand Still · U2

    You know those guys who use their teeth to pull the trucks?  I feel like that is me.  I've done it my whole life....with one person or another.   I have just recently learned that "potential" does not exist and that hanging on to it is very damaging.  It is not a reason to be anywhere.  The real place, house, job, mate, friend is ALREADY the things you need.  Together you can flourish maybe...but you don't have to stand there begging.  You don't have to wait for them to open like a flower and become what you are looking for.  Sure, you can accept certain things...faults...because we all have them...but the true nature of the thing or the person is always right there in your face. 
     I run...pulling you along behind me....hoping that you will be as excited with you as I am.  I see the possibilities.  I analyze the business.  I find the hope.  I push myself.  I push for others.  I begin to expect it back.  I've been battling with myself about this very thing.  Should I expect anything?  I read a quote the other day that has lingered in my brain.  It finally made sense of it. 

"Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them."

    I can't read it enough.  I am growing everyday.  I am working to be better on a daily basis.  I am finding that the world needs my energy for many things...and drama is not one of them.  And I am finished with helping those who do not want to grow and learn and love with me.  You might get in your own way...but you will no longer get in mine.