Mornings are tricky. For the most part I wake up quite happy having lived movie scenes in my dreams that were larger than life. I don't let the weather effect me much. Curls like rain and we have different clothes for a reason. A song can get me going. I have never backed down from a good challenge. I am an optimist....I will find that silver lining. Even if it kills me. But sometimes the song comes to a halt by a giant scratch noise across the vinyl...real life isn't always butterflies and rainbows.
As the morning opens in front of us...so do the realizations of real life. Now we have to decide what to do with this day. We have to decide who needs us most. What we need to get done. What is important and what can wait. We have appointments and jobs and a task lists. We also have decisions...hundreds of them to be made before our head hits the pillow and we start all over again.
I have been training my brain with new thought patterns. New mantras. New pleasures. Or maybe...I am just finding my old ones again. Either way...this song still makes me happy. I first heard it back in my early twenties. I was newly married and newly relocated. I was driving back and forth to a retail job and finding my path in a new life. As I questioned what was behind me and where I was going I let this song bring me back to the moment in which I was living. All of these years later it still has the power to do it. This morning I was feeling the fog slip into my brain. I was feeling the sadness that eluded me yesterday. I faced the other morning battles as well. But I made the choice. I stopped the loop. I've paved new pathways in this brain and each and every time I use them I destroy the rotten old roads of the past. I find my way back.
Just remember...we always have the choice.
Hold up your end
And I'll hold up mine
Dancin' all the time
Dancin' all the time
And too late father
You know that that's for sure
You never find a way
Never find a way
So gather around
And see what the day brings
And see what makes you laugh
And see what makes you sing
And never, nevermind
The thing that people say
You'll never go away
You'll never go away
Who knows where the storm will take us
Who knows when the pain will break us
When will all the G's be given
Another chance to live in freedom
Hey now
Get your heart, get your heart
Off of the shelf
Make the grey sky blue
Yeah, I'm talkin to you
And nevermind
The sick and the afraid
Askin' out today to see a brighter day
So gather around
And see what the day brings
And see what makes you laugh
And see what makes you sing
And never, nevermind
The thing that people say
You'll never go away
You'll never go away
Who knows where the storm will take us
Who knows when the pain will break us
When will all the G's be given
Another chance to live in freedom
So gather around
And see what the day brings
And see what makes you laugh
And see what makes you sing
And never, nevermind
The thing that people say
You'll never go away
You'll never go away
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