Changes... (Heretics · Andrew Bird)

    If someone had told me years ago that in a few years I would feel completely different about so many things...I would NEVER have believed them.   First off, the changes to my life would be unbelievable.  But that's life, right?  But me?  ME, this different?  Nahhhhhh.  Turns out that what I thought was a shift a few years ago is now a downright going out of business sale.  All things must go!!! All sales final!!!  Things needed to change with me.  The mirror isn't always pretty and the work is harder than labor for 34 hours plus every sickness I've ever had and every job, death and challenge combined.  COMBINED.  I understand why it is hard to believe that changes can be big.  I, too, used to find it hard to believe anything other than what was in my closed off little brain.  I get it now though.  It's so different.  It's so big.  Each day is exercise to these new muscles.  But as I push my body, brain, spirit, and soul to find it's true essence...please know that the work is paying off.  You don't have to believe it just yet...I know... and right now that's all I can do...just be alright with myself.  I'll get to the rest of you eventually...c'mon now...I'm still ME for goodness sakes.  But as you wouldn't trip a runner going by maybe you could try a little kindness.  This work is harder than you think.