It's easy to be the optimist...to me anyway. I understand it isn't the way of life of many. For me it's normal and effortless. I really do see the good in the situation. I cling to the hopeful. But it makes for a tough time when I have to do things that are hard for a sunshine and butterfly kinda girl. It's hard for me to hold you accountable. It's tricky for me to have a system that doesn't work. I don't mind failing myself but I do mind failing others. I look for the angle I can take to get you to be the bigger person...the more efficient...better. I feel we are here to inspire one another to be the thing we can be.
The next few weeks I will have to be tough. I will be making people uncomfortable. I will be the bad guy. There will be limits and restraints and rules and people don't like that. I have given you far too many chances and you have lied or been lazy far too many times.
I try to teach my kids to do what they would do no matter what. Drive like the cops are behind you. Treat others as if some higher power is watching. Behave as though your Mom is right there. Live well and do good and be who you are regardless of your surroundings. Easier said than done for some. I'm pretty proud of them so far. They make good decisions. They say things like, "We're not supposed to have that". Sometimes I'm one of the few teaching the good lessons.
It means I will have to push to be stronger. Tougher. Firm. It means enforcing bedtimes. Holding onto ATM cards. Dumping a ton of old stuff. Offering less options. Making people do their part. It means no more enabling. No more crutches. I am usually pretty "tough love" when it comes down to it but I know I need to do even more. I am gearing up. I am working out. I am ready to do what needs to be done. With the new season will come more than just a change in the weather...
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