Keep Your Head Up (Andy Grammer)

     Times are a bit challenging yet again.  I'm dealing with the next phase of mourning it seems.  It snuck up on my ass.  Financial issues are flaring with the light of the 4th of July.  Friends are busy and the summertime is full of moments that need to be somehow both relaxing and full...simultaneously.  The To Do list is long but the sunshine and pool call to me as I look at my little ones dancing around in their swimsuits and masks.  There have been tricky trips, illnesses and overwhelming burdens to juggle.  But yesterday while talking at work with a like minded soul I realized it was ok to not only have moments of despair but to also have the moments that follow...when I kick the crap out of the negativity.  It's easy to succumb.  It's easy to play the sad, depressing music.  It's easy to sleep and skip meals and veg in front of the tv.  I haven't been choosing easy lately.  I've been pushing.  So I play the music that makes me shake my ass while I'm with my kids.  I eat the food that is healthy and light to make me feel better physically.  I take myself out of the comfort zone daily.  Daily.  And push.  Don't get me wrong if I feel the need to yell and scream and cry my eyes out...I DO!  With gusto.  But then I move on.  I remind myself about the things I want my life to BE.  I think about all that I have already.  I find the moment in which I am living.  Not only do I search and often find rainbows but I have a group of friends who send me texts with their own sightings and pics.  Maybe there a few of us with this thinking.  Not only have I raised butterflies but when one flies by...we all stop to watch it.  I joke about the butterflies and rainbows but it seems to be my theme.  So to you I say...find your version of rainbows and butterflies.  Find the thing or person or place that makes your heart lighter and your load bearable.  And run to it when you need it.  Find that song that makes you dance.  The song that makes you sing.  The place that makes you happy.  The friend that makes you giggle.  The blog post amidst the sad and angry ones...that reminds you to keep your head up ;)